LettingGo
Have you ever had someone in your life that you know is holding you back? You know this person, even without intention, is toxic to you and your life? I’m in that situation right now, and I must admit to being sick at the thought of letting go of someone who I consider a friend. Especially when that someone has no idea the reason why.
I guess the womanly thing for me to do is sit down with this person and let them know. My heart resists this. I have to make a clean break; I have to drop it and never pick it up. I have to, in essence, disappear from this person in order to appear to myself. That is a huge challenge.
When I love someone, they own a piece of my heart forever. Ignoring their residence in that space is difficult. If I am to truly stand in the space that God has designed for me, though…ignoring is what I need to do. On the other hand, not making a clean break gives that person to swoosh back into my life at a later time, when I think I’ve got my shit together, and fuck it up. Oh, the quandary…
Please forgive the rambling. I just needed to let some of this go.
It hurts like hell, though…
