really…it’s the full moon
I believe that everything in the universe has a cause and effect. What I mean is that everything put out into the world will come back to you, sometimes tenfold. I also believe that our solar system, with all of its bright stars and constellations, do not exist without their being causing some shift in the universe.
Full moons always find me acting outside of myself. I once read somewhere that the full moon has the effect of bringing out that side of you that you rarely show to anyone willingly. That’s what happens to me. Is happening to me. All the things that I like to keep to myself, about myself, feel like they are on full display. I’m restless, but highly aware of everything going on around me. It is truly…ethereal. It is almost as if I can feel every fiber in my body, and feel everything working and moving and thinking.
Sometimes, like today, that does not work to my advantage. I know I should be reveling in this powerful awareness, but I’m not. I’m feeling overwhelmed and unsure and indecisive…exactly the opposite of how I normally am. All of the feelings that I am fighting to release and let go of came rushing back at me today and nearly knocked me to my knees. I found myself in tears somewhere aroudn the middle of the day…for what? I couldn’t even tell you.
This is one full moon cycle that I will be glad to see go away. I need Marva back; the Marva that knows and sees and believes and does. The Marva that keeps it moving. This Marva, the one that is seemingly stuck in a time warp, is not doing anything for me.
Sighing,
~ Marva
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