The Story Of Fantasia
I called my mother up yesterday and asked if she heard the news about Fantasia. My mother, who doesn’t get into celebrity gossip at all, said that she had heard something about an affair. When I told her that Fantasia allegedly attempted to commit suicide, she fell silent. “Oh no,” I heard her whisper over the phone. “What happened?” she asked. I told her the story from what I had read and she said, “Damn…how did she get to this point, I wonder?”
I wonder the same thing. Where there is belief and faith, this point should not even exist. That makes me question if she was off her center; meaning, had she lost her way with the God that she serves? I understand being overwhelmed and scared to deal with the repercussions and consequences of her actions. I even understand the pain and hurt she must feel as a result of this relationship. What I don’t understand is denying the fact that love is present in her life, with her daughter and her family, and wanting to give up.
Life is not easy. As women, we often look for love in all the wrong places, usually finding it attached to some bullshit and drama. That is, of course, if we don’t love ourselves enough to take a step back and listen to that small voice that whispers in our ear and tells us that we are headed for a mistake. Even when we do listen to that voice, we can still step in some shit and have to deal with the heartache and pain of not remainign at our center.
We can talk for hours on the why and how this happened. I don’t care to engage in that conversation, other than to say that we are on the outside looking in. No one knows really what the story is; no one knows where the feelings and bonds lie. I think we can all clearly see there is some pain here; pain that I pray Fantasia is able to let go of and move on.
I was saddened by this news. One reason was because I believe that Fantasia is a strong woman who is perhaps getting the raw deal out of this whole thing. I don’t mean to lessen the blame that she must own; what I mean is that even though it takes two to tango, it is she who will bear the brunt of what the both of them have done. I just happened to be watching CNN tonight and the man’s name that she has been dating was only mentioned once…once! Correct me if I’m wrong, but he is the one who is/was married, right? Where is the anger at him for dipping out on his wife? What is even sadder is that women go through this everyday, outside of the public eye. There seems to be no distinguishing line between morality and debauchery, and instances like this pop up all the time, like it is normal.
