Rambling

I have too much time on my hands. I’m unfocused and unstructured, and I am abusing my time immensely. Heavy sigh. I should be doing a lot of things, but I’m not. Why? I don’t have a legitimate answer for that…only that I’m being stifled by an obstacle: myself.

I am bound and determined before I go to bed tonight to get at least one thing accomplished: write out my goals and what I need to get done. There is no reason for me to be sitting here like this, immobile, when I know that I have things to do. Laziness does not become me.

I wanted to mention that I finally signed up for twitter…those of you who choose to, follow me at http://twitter.com/Marvalus. I’m pretty boring so far, but I’ll get the hang of it soon. I’ve also been thinking of changing some things around here (didn’t I just do that?), but that’s how things get when I’m bored and have too much time on my hands. I can’t sit still. I was reading through some of my past posts and I miss what was. But then I realized that I can’t recapture those things. I have to continue to move forward.

But I also don’t know what to make of this. Maybe the time has run out. Maybe it’s time for this to become something else, instead of me trying to reinvent it. I don’t know. When I sit here now, I draw a blank sometimes…that never used to happen. And that pisses me the hell off. Maybe I’m supposed to be saving all this energy for something else. I have too many questions, and not enough answers.

I’m going to take a break. My post is scheduled for OSF tomorrow. I’ll be back in time for OSF next Friday.

Stay real…