May 012008

W2W: No Turning Back

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Today is just one of those days. I’m trying to stay focused, trying to keep fighting…but today? I just felt like laying down. I didn’t, of course because I don’t want to give in to that feeling, don’t want to give in to sliding down in the dumps. So instead today I took it kinda easy…I didn’t write as much, didn’t spend as much time doing what I normally do…I just kinda chilled. I took some time to get my mind right and really think about what is going on with me and how to really achieve what I am reaching for.

I also read a lot today. I always read, but I read for about 3 hours today, which is a lot for me in a days time. Especially recently. I haven’t sat down and read a book for 3 hours straight in a long time. And it felt so good to escape into someone else’s world for a moment, to see the world through someone else’s lens for a change. I also did a lot of sitting and staring. And thinking. Being unemployed is no fun; but I look at this time as a way to clear away the cobwebs and really get into what is going on with me. What is it that I’m searching for? What do I really want to do?

I wake up in the morning with these questions on my mind…they trouble me, they greet me, they haunt me. I continue to pray about it, and I know that the answer will come…I have a problem with patience—I have none. But I also know that this melancholy will only last a short while, because it will be replaced with the spirit of determination that I seem to have acquired lately.

No turning back…

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It’s all love…

Believer 1964

Whatever the feeling(s) let them come, process them, and then let them go. Don't stay too long there though and journal.

Be content in what season you are in and know that great things are workin' out behind the scenes.

Matthew 10:29-31

Danielle

It will work out for you Marva! It's a scary, crazy time. I won't give you any $2 advice, but I've been where you are and things fell into place.

Stay focused Grasshopper! :lol:

Urban Thought

Sounds like the questions you've asked yourself have actually been answered.

It's through this time of quiet and relative reflection that we see ourselves in our truest form. I feel you are on the path of finding the truth within yourself.

Then again I could be a person who doesn't know what he is talking about at all.

I do like how you put it all out there. How you have allowed yourself to focus on what matters, your next step. Your future is bright.

Indeed, it's all love. And you have that.