God Certainly Knows What He Is Doing…

I get into these moments of reflection when I look back at my life and look at how things have turned out for me…let me just say, right here and right now, God certainly has His hand in my life, y’all.

For instance, He knew what he was doing when He gave me a boy instead of a girl. Don’t get me wrong; I am a total girly-girl. I love little girls and I have a little niece that I adore, but raising a girl? Sharing a house with a girl? I don’t think I could do it…I’m selfish. I don’t like sharing my things…I have a bad enough problem with my son using my tweezers to squeeze his pimples (eew!)…I mean I go off! I buy him his own stuff but for some reason, he insists on using mine…but who could stay mad at this angel…

God also knew what He was doing when I got laid off in April…I find out this morning that the CEO is stepping down effective immediately…that can’t be a good sign, I don’t care what the company says…I am happy with my very good severance package and will take all the talent and shit that they decided they didn’t need anymore to some company who will appreciate what I have to give…

God also knows what He is doing with my life. I may spend time frustrated with my HLF, or with my family who sometimes forgets what the word support means, or with my friends who seemingly forget that I’m here, or even with my baby’s daddy who gets an attitude with me because I DON’T WANT HIM NO MO’…but my life is good. I can wake up every morning with a smile on my face because I know that I have treated everyone in my life fairly, that I love the people around me (including all of their faults), and that love will be and is returned to me in all forms, all the time. It’s a beautiful thing…

It’s all love, baby…

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